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So I am having another anxiety flare up / depression episode. For the last two years I have coped day by day without medicating but it's getting very difficult now.
The problem is, I just don't know what my problem is. I just feel empty, thoughtless and hollow. I spend everyday depersonalised and dizzy / in a state of confusion. I am extremely fatigued and run down and struggling to do basic things. I am 26 and healthy otherwise.
I hate my job with passion, I have my vile colleagues, the negativity / stale atmosphere yet I grin and bare it because the pay has funded everything I have. Feeling like this, I don't know how I'd cope with a new job.
I have a lovely wife and a nice home and have so much to be greatful for, which I am however, I just spend each day trapped inside a dream like state, shaking and panicking over nothing. My days off alone, I spend stuck in 100mph mode trying to keep as busy as possible to keep my mind focused on a task.
I just don't know what to do. If I go the doctors I am sure I will get antidepressants again and starting to think it's not a bad thing now.
Can anyone else relate?
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